30 Days of me: Day 20

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future.

This one is actually hard for me because I dont know how my future is determined to be. I dont know whats going to happen with my marriage. There fore all I can really say is I hope that whoever it may be, has to love and accept me and alyssa as there own. They have to be funny, and love to cuddle yet keep me on my toes. I want them to be strong willed so I dont push them over so much, (I have been there done that. I have the want to control lots of situations..) sooo I need someone to tell me when I get to get my panties out of a wad and breathe.. I love to stay active, but yet has the want to have lazy sundays at home from time to tome. ♥

No that I have just explained my prince and shinning armor.. if anyone finds him.. tell him to call me..

XOXOXO

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30 Days of me: Day 19

day 19- Nicknames you have and why you have them

Well.. I have been called..

*shorty

*poo-bear

*Le

*Leelers

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day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Plans, dreams, and goals..

Since everything has really changed, I can say that im not living by any currently.
All I want is to be happy and to raise my daughter in a happy home, where shes surrounded by nothing but love, and support.

I do have my 101. I guess you can call that a goal that I am working towards.

As far as dreams, Its more than likely the same as any girl. I just wanna fall in love, and have more babies, and actually have a home.. MY home. Like a normal, happy, and healthy life.

Goals of mine may include: Get a new car within like a year or two... Pay off MAJOR debt (thanks b!)...Make more money.. Have more babies one day...

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30 days of me: Day 17

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.

I would really love to switch lives with my lys.. I would love to get in her head and figure out lots of things that I just dont understand.... I know that shes two, and that the things that I dont understand change from day to day.. but these are a few things that I would just love to have explainations for..

*Why oh why do u insist on making me only put on one shoe.. then 10 mins later you ask me for help with the 2nd one.

*Why oh why, do u not want to go to school today?? You really have it made there ya know?

*Why oh why, do u have to tell me no like every 10 mins? You know momma doesn't do well with that word.

*Why oh why, do u need mama to take you to go potty in the new house, when u went all on your own at the old one?

*Why oh why is "Momma's toilet" better that your own?

*Why oh why is is sooo fun to jump all over the new apt?? Im sure the downstairs neighbors think I have a wild hullagan as a child.

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On a positive note, I do love this baby more than words can explain. Shes the most amazing thing that has ever happend to me, and I couldnt see my life any different. I would also love to understand the love she has for her "nite-nite" (blanket.) Its so amazing how much she loves that thing. I would love to see how they see the world, and how they think of everyone. This child LOVES everyone. She sees no harm in anyone ever. Everyday that I pick her up from school, she has to give everyone a hug bye. Its sooo sweet. So there for one day I would love to swich lives with my 2 y/o and not only understand the complicated things that she goes threw, but also understand how she sees the world. 

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30 Days of Me: Day 16

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Getting much better from the road rash :)

(sorry I have been so slack with this lately I really never intended to "not post" a day or too.. but the accident happend, and then the move this past week. But im back on a roll, PROMISE!)

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Post.. 100 :)

Wow.. Its amazing how time flies! Today as I was logging on to my account to resume my 30 days of me, I noticed that The next blog I posted would be post 100. Which means alot to me :)

I wish that I would have done something big like a contest or a drawing, or SOMETHING to show how thankful I am for all the readers that I have (even though lots of u dont "follow" me or leave me comments) I know your there "lerking" :)

So as this being post 100, Im going to give you a little rundown this little journey I have enbarked on, and tell you how I do love this little "home" I have in the world wide web.

This year was my 4 year mark on being married... This year is the year that I moved out on my own... This year my sweet baby is a romping 2 y/o that looks like her daddy and has a attitude like me... This year I was actually in my first real accident... This year I let alot of hurt and anger go, I have accepted the fact that people make mistakes, and they all need to be forgiven... This year I have made really good friends, and I have lost really good friends...This year I went back to work for the first time in 2 years...  This year is more than half way over, and although I dont know how this year will end up, I know that at this moment in time all my decisions feels like the right thing to do. This crap isnt easy, but noone said that it would be. Believe it or not its the little things thats the hardest; "putting" things away for lys. (AKA daddys dog tags, a white sailor hat.) Im not one for change, and living in a house thats not the house i have lived in for basically 4 years is quite harder than I thought that it would be. Hopefully everything will settle with time.

I have come to be so open to my blog, It feels so good to be about to write, and let all my feelings out at any given time. I love to log on to blogger.com, and read about everyone and see lots of fun little things on all my friends blog. Most of all I love knowing that whatever is going on in my little world is right here. Whenever things needs to be rememberd more than likely here in this little "home" I have is where its kept :)

Thanks again everyone for all the support and love :)

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30 Days of me: Day 15

Day 15- Put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

1. Livin our love song-Jason Michael Carroll

2. Just the way you are-Bruno Mars

3. California Girls-Katy Perry

4. Just a dream-Nelly

5. Impossible-Shonetlle

6. Cooler than me-Mike Posner

7. Umbrella-Rihanna

8. Not Afraid-Eminem

9. DJ got us falling in love again- Usher

10. Love like Crazy - Lee Bryce

I can so tell this is a new ipod!!

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30 Days of me: Day 14

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

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30 Days of Me: Day 12 & 13...

..because im a slacker!

Day 12- How you found out about blogger and why you have one

A friend of mine from Kandid Kelli, use to post her blog alot and I use to read it all the time, you can too here. I wanted to do the 1001 things to do in 101 days, you can read that here. I also felt like this year was going to be big for me, and I wanted to remember it all. What a better way to do it then to blog about things that happen in your everyday life. I thought it was a fabulous idea, and I am very thankful that I done it.

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

 

To be honest, Im having a really hard time with this challenge today! I dont have noone to write. I tried a few possibilties, but it just does feel right. I try not to hold a grudge, and I let things go way to easily, so thats why this is hard for me. Im really sorry that I cant go threw with it, BUT if I come up with anything I will be sure to edit it. :) Thanks

 

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30 days of me: Day 11

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

(And im BACKKKKK)

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...I knew this year would hold alot...

Well along with everything else going on with my life (the seperation, the moving) I get myself into a accident friday. Not just any accidnet nope my ass was on a motorcycle. Before you go and ask, yes it was with a guy named greg. We were going on a curve, and the foot peg of the bike caught the asphalt, and the tried to stand the bike back up, and we dont know if I counter acted against him, or didnt do anything at all, BUT we ran off the otherside of the road, and into a ditch and flew off.

YES we went to the hospital, It was absolutly horrible! They actaully scrub the wound. It really sucks. I was crying and bitching the entire time. :) GO ME!! I had to go back sunday, then tuesady. Now everyday untill they want to take the bandages off. The doctor say that everything is healing nicely though, so thats the good thing. 

Please dont go and preach to me, BELIEVE me when I tell you I have heard it all. Im sure I will get on a bike again. Prolly wont be for a while though. lol

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On a different note. Seems as though alot of people dont read this cause lots of people still dont know that I am staying and brandon is goin to NC..

Well there ya go :) We are seperated.... meaning we are married but we are taking a break and reevaluating the situation in about 6 months or so... Well then see if we wanna make things work, or just cut out ties now.

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For all my 30 days of me followers...I promise I will start back again soon, I am just not getting back to normal.. Well somewhat :)

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30 Days of me: Day 10

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

Hmm.. although I think this post is kind of lame im going to do it anyways..

I have often before mentioned my love for music, and how it helps me get in touch with my feelings and emotions. Therefore, I listen to certain things at certain times..

*Mostly when im happy I listen to some R&B, some hip hop, something I can crank up and move with  :)

*Sad is when I listen to any kind of some that is related to the problem, whats making me feel that way..

*Bored... LOL.. anything that is mostly on the radio

*Hyped I love to go back to the good ole days rap, and R&B.

*When im mad or pissed.. I dont wanna talk to anyone or listen to anything..

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30 days of me: Day 9

Day 9- Something youre proud of in the past few days.

For the first time, I am actually standing on my own minus the financial issue.. I mean if that ever became a problem theres always the thought of stripping... NOT.. well.. ya no. It feels so good to stand my ground when I feel that im missing something, and that my relationship could be more. It been a HARD month, to be seperated yet, dealing with it for lys sake. Its for the best though, and thats what keeps me going. For the shit I have been having to overcome, I have not let "things" get to me. I in this situation have been the bigger person, and thats what im proud of. Im proud to say that I have no stooped down to his level of childish, and selfishness. I have become the better person♥

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