So guys first off I wanna say thanks for all the prayers and support Peyton, and her family. I know they are very much appreciated. Peyton passed away saturday at 4. Its so hard to understand. I know that everything happens for a reason. Just sometimes I cant wrap my head around it.
She was my flower girl :)
RIP baby girl! You are truely loved and missed by many.
I myself have always been a worrier, I think about things I shouldnt all the time. I thought for sure when brandon came home, it would help ease my mind a little, and it had. I was doing fine untill all this happend. Now its amplified by like 10.
I worry about not waking up.
I worry about getting in a accident.
I worry about something happening to lys or brandon.
I worry about all my friends...
I worry about my sister leading the wrong path
This isnt healthy for me.. and its kinda my dark place. I dont know if time will make it smooth back out, or I need to go talk to someone about it. I have prayed, and gave all my fears to the lord, yet I still have this fear weighing on my chest. If I let my self I could even possibly just cry cause im so scared of anything that could possibly happen. It wouldnt help that im a emotional person anyways now would it.
Im not always this bad, and sometimes I can go weeks and not even really let this get to me. I really just think this happening it has brought it back up and maganfied it.
ENOUGHT ABOUT THAT
Yesterday I was holding my friend amandas adorbale very new bundle of joy, she was so beautiful and tiny. It was something I had never felt before the great weight of the loss of peyton, the complete joy of this new perfect baby. It was a moment I will never forget.
We have decided that we are going to take lyss to see toy story 3 with Mandi and her sweet little family. I am pretty sure we are going to wait a little so that its not so croweded.
Till then, thats all thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.