... humph

I wish I could get out of my blogger phobia. Its almost as though I never have anything to say in here anymore.

I can say that I dont know what it is, but this week im having a hard time. I am missing being married.

I miss the feeling that u get living in a military community.

I miss my marital house, that I raised my daughter in.

I miss being secure in a relationship.

I miss not having to worry, or have doubts.

I miss having a close circle of friends.

Somedays I really feel like this, and I knew I would have these days. Just sucks when I feel like I dont really have anyone to lean on anymore. I know every day Im getting better and stonger.

But even on my weakest days,

 I LOVE having alyssa all to myself.

I LOVE having to answer to noone.

I LOVE being able to do things by myself, and not needing anyone.

...this is LOVE.. having this everyday

Number 44 on my 101 :)

Record 1 thing a day that makes ME happy :)

1) Waking up to my girls sweety face. 4/18/2011



Thanks for following us in this journey we call life.

April...2011

So, its been about a month since I was last here.

Its crazy how times flies really.

This past month, lets see...

Ive had a few heartbreaks, and let downs...

for the most part been about 80% anxiety free.. WOO HOO..

Lys dislocated her arm again, and had her first major visit to the er...

I went out dancing ONCE.. lol

Took lys to a easter egg hunt, and she had no idea what to do..

I PAID the car off.. WOO HOO!!

Locked our self out the apt, so untill we got inside had a great time enjoying the beautiful weather...

Stopped seein my therapist, he makes me feel worse about myself..

We went to see disney on ice again this year..

We attended a beautiful wedding..

Dyed the hurrr :)

Got a new bunny because ours died had to go help the easter bunny deliver eggs.

got some new coach glasses..

also my first pair of actual seeing glasses.. Im getting old I know..

And went to gainesville, ALOT.

It sure has been a interesting month. I really cant wait to see what my future holds, cause lord knows I dont know. Im just taking things day by day. Lys is still the best thing EVER, I really couldnt imagine my life without her. She has been driving me a little nuts lately thou, I hear it comes with the age thou. All the questions, and rebellion. Shes a handful thats fo sho.

Heres a few pic off my phone :)

 

I have alot more pics on my camera for my few frames a week, and I just never post them. Maybe I will get on the tonight :)

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.