I live for...

These amazing not very often moments

♥

... a glimpse of hope!!

Ever since my girl was a wee tiny thing she has never really looked anything like me. Them gallardo gene's must be potent. I mean its serious!

The only thing alyssa ever "had" and believe me it was very momentarially was some red hair when she first came out..

Yup, that was it! That was all I had, and it was only for a few weeks too.

See attached happily married photo pic:

She looks just like him, always has...

Well looks like those days are over folks!

My girl now has a piece of me..

who cares if its a SMALL piece



Yup, you guess it!

its FRECKLES!!!

Have a great day, I sure am!

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

April...2011

So, its been about a month since I was last here.

Its crazy how times flies really.

This past month, lets see...

Ive had a few heartbreaks, and let downs...

for the most part been about 80% anxiety free.. WOO HOO..

Lys dislocated her arm again, and had her first major visit to the er...

I went out dancing ONCE.. lol

Took lys to a easter egg hunt, and she had no idea what to do..

I PAID the car off.. WOO HOO!!

Locked our self out the apt, so untill we got inside had a great time enjoying the beautiful weather...

Stopped seein my therapist, he makes me feel worse about myself..

We went to see disney on ice again this year..

We attended a beautiful wedding..

Dyed the hurrr :)

Got a new bunny because ours died had to go help the easter bunny deliver eggs.

got some new coach glasses..

also my first pair of actual seeing glasses.. Im getting old I know..

And went to gainesville, ALOT.

It sure has been a interesting month. I really cant wait to see what my future holds, cause lord knows I dont know. Im just taking things day by day. Lys is still the best thing EVER, I really couldnt imagine my life without her. She has been driving me a little nuts lately thou, I hear it comes with the age thou. All the questions, and rebellion. Shes a handful thats fo sho.

Heres a few pic off my phone :)

 

I have alot more pics on my camera for my few frames a week, and I just never post them. Maybe I will get on the tonight :)

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

Heres my trumpet

Its been a while, eh?

How ya been? Things have been crazy, hectic, fun, unanxious-ish alright here. I am so close to a point where I can begin to blog about whatever I want again, and not have to live in fear that the wrong person will read my blog. Things have been slowly getting better though. Its a relief to say that yesterday I actually filed my divorce papers, WOOO HOOO! Like one of the attorneys said yesterday, there should be some trumpets or something right?? Well theres my trumpet, yes im tooting my own horn. Its been a LONG time a commin :)

Lyssa is doing amazing, to say they least. She is so amazingly smart for her age. She can ride her ticycle finally. Its actually my fault she hasnt already learned, I had to get my lazy butt out the apartment and help her learn.

This past weekend I actually went to the NHRA Gator Nationals down in Gainesville FL. It was absolutely awesome. I was quite exhausted and sun burnt after but will defiantly be going next year.

I also have been going to see a therapist for a few of my anxiety issues. Its been quite different admitting that it defeated me and that I need the help, but I guess that's one step to my recovery is admitting that I need the help. I never thought that I would need something like that, but I guess with ALL that happened the past year it was a lot on me, and I can accept that now.

I am dating a certain someone, and he is quite amazing to my daughter and me. It makes me happy to know that there love out there, you just have to find it and have hope. I will be posting a picture overload post here before too long so keep your eyes peeled.

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

da da dummmmm

Thats what I heard when my doctor told me yesterday, at the age of 24 I have high cholesterol. So here to yet one of the hardest new years resolutions I have ever committed myself too.

I HAVE TO CHANGE MY DIET.

Its not that I eat bad, but the high cholesterol has to do with being hereditary, and its not that I eat to accommodate to that.

Bleh, I can make this change to better me, and maybe better my baby for the future. 

Thanks for joining this journey we call life.

On more new years resolutions :)

Let me start off by saving I have created a horrible routein. Every day after we get home from work/schoool I have always put lyssa on a show so I can wind down, and start making dinner. Well now its a must for my girl.

Soo, im going to try and stop that. Im gonna try to get some "homework" in. :) Maybe come home, catch up with mickey & minnie, or oso for that matter for about 30 mins and try to get my girl to do some homework with mama for the other 30 mins untill dinner is done. She loved to draw and color so why not :)

For christmas she got this awesome preschooler workbook.

Im hoping that we can work on a section a week.

Also, I dont know if anyone has noticed my slackerism, thats been going on but I have no worked on my 101 in quite sometime. (you can see that here)

In order to get back on target im going to be picking and choosing a few things a week to accomplish.

Numbers to work on are... #6, 14, 15, 30, 60, 64, 70, 73, 85, 95

So wish me luck:)

Thanks for joining this journey we call life.

.. on being a big girl!

:( So today I really realized that im broke! LOL I either need to start stripping orrr, I guess the better option would be to ask for a raise! Boo for that, it just makes me feel so bad. Living off one paycheck really sucks! HA!! (child support DOES help, thankfully we have that)

OOOH well, we are gonna make it and all is going to be well in the world. This year I am going to save money dang it! Its really important! I will get my finances in check. More and more everday I feel myself getting more drived to do it. It feels so empowering when U have a extra "cushion" in the bank. THEN christmas comes and wipes everything out like a damn hurricane. BLEHH! HAHA.

Oh well to make the day brighter Im attaching a few pics of my girl and her cuteness. But for the record..

Somedays being a big girl... SUCKS!

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life :)

Jingle bell remixxx :)

Soo today as I was driving lys to daycare she started singing..

Its nothing out of the ordinary cause my girl can bust out some lyrics, and insist on music being blasted, AND tells me NOT to sing mama!!

But today she made up her own version of a original song we all know and love around the christmas time..

Jingle Bells:

(complete silence in the car)

"Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way... HOME,"

"Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way... HOME,"

"Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way... HOME,"

repeated.. you get the point!

Its amazing how something so simple can put a HUGE smile on my face!!

Hopes everyone is having a great tuesday!! Yay for a short work week for everyone!

I know I have been slacking on the blog and I promise with the new year comes LOTS of new blogs :)

Thanks for joining this journey we call life :)

Update :)

So here it is huh? The last month of the year. Something, I mean SOMETHING has happend every month I think? I have MIA lately. Its because when things in my world are stressed although the blog is where I should let it all go I just for some reason, just cant do it. I bottle it all up and just share it with those closest to me.

AnyWHO! Anyone starting thinking of there new years resolutions yet??

 I am thinking ...

*I am goin to try to start this One Frame A Day. You can see here someone elses and it gives you a idea. I think that it would DEF help with my photography, and would be a awesome way to remember the little things we seem to forget in our day to day lives.

*I also wanna blog more, and not let little things get the best of me.

*I also wanna be more active with some new friendships.

*And I wanna do awesome with my MK business.

To get you up to date a little...

In the last month..

RIGHT after my last post as a matter of fact...

I had to rush to GA to get my puppy that was run over by a car..She ended up having to get her left rear leg amputated, due to her bone being shattered. She doing Great thou! The cutest damn 3 legged dog EVER!!

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The ex was in a bad accident so I was in NC for a day to make sure all was ok with him. Hes fine thou.. Had a awesome time with my bestie with our mini unexpected road trip thou :)

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Had a Great thanksgiving!

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Made a few new friends, and had a few great dinnners :)

Here are a few pics :)

Not many I know I know.. Ive been slackin with the camer. Hope everyone has a GREAT day!!

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.



.... thursday rambles...

Sometimes I use to hate this military lifestyle. Its hard, Really dang hard! I use to wish and DREAM, that one day I wouldnt have to live this way. I could actually live something we call "normal." Then I have that chat with one of my loves I have met on the way. To me thats the greatest reward of being married to someone in the service. You meet so many different people, and you form bonds that can never be broken. I always know that I can always call upon certain people No matter what or what time cause thats the way its ALWAYS been.

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So here it is the first week of november.. DANG.. Where has the year gone???!?!? Its been a pretty good one! LOL I am still excited and looking forward for the rest of it. Hopefully well go out with a bang :) Yesterday I became a MARY KAY consultant! I am SOOO excited about this. Its something I wanted to do for a while. There make-up is pretty fab so why not sell something I love :)

This baby Little girl of mine, has been quite the trip lately:) Shes learning and growin into a AMAZING little girl. Makes this mamma VERY proud of her. She knows all kinds of songs that come on the radio and just bust out the lyrics. Who knew at 2?? Never did I think that would happen. LOL She has been having bad dreams the other day. Which then turned into there being COOKIES in the tub, and she very terrified :( But daycare teachers talked to her, and all the kids ate all the cookies all gone, so shes over that! Thank goodness!! Its amazing how much daycare really helps them. :) As hard as it was at first, but I am so happy that I made that decision. She is using her manners so fluently. It makes me feel soo good to know that I raised such a amazing daughter, and I cant wait untill its my turn to do it again. One day.. sigh!

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life..

Five Question Friday, and a little ramble :)

You can check out my friend kelli's here. Then u can go here and Join in and Link up!!

1. Who is the better cook, you or your spouse?

Well.. Since I am currently spouseless. ME :) Easy! I am pretty dang good in the kitchen thou!

2. How often do you talk to your mom?

I usually call home every morning :)

3. Are you adventurous in the kitchen or stick to the recipe?

I really just like to stick to a recipe.. but everynow and again I will be a rebel!

4. Is your second toe longer than your big toe?

OOH ya! That means im the head out of the household :)

5. Do you dress up for Halloween? (Bonus question: What will you be this year?)

Well.. I did the lys first halloween. :) This year lys is gonna be a Ga cheerleader, and since its ga/fl weekend.. I will polly just go along with it and put on a ga shirt or something!



 

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Ok so.. I just wanted to say that I know I havent been keepin up with my blog like I should be but this little mama has been going threw some tough times.

A.K.A

A little anxiety, Loneliness, Terrible TERRIBLE 2's, U know normal having a rough patch kinda stuff.

 

Well now that everyting starting to settle down and fall back into place, things seems to be going back to normal. It feels so good to somewhat get some sanity back. Dont get me wrong I def have my bad moments/days. I think it all comes with it though.

 

What makes me sooo happy though, is this am we were headed to daycare and lys tells me.

"Mama?"

"Yes baby"

"I sooo happy!! "

 

ahhh.. made my day! Im damnit doing something right :)

 

Thanks for joining this journey we call life

30 Days of me:Day 21

(although this has carried on FAR too long... I will NOT quit!!)

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

simple as that ♥

thanks for following us in this journey we call life..

Monday Rambles :)

So here is is.

OCTOBER..

Ahh.. its so my favorite time of year♥

Things in the gallardo house have been crazy!!

Lys has been trying to drive her mama up the wall, but I have been stern and consistant.. and everythings starting to level out, and I see the beginnings of my sweet baby back.

I shall SOON be getting internet at the apt. Is SOO long overdue.

Theres just been so much going on that I havent been into blogging to much. I tend to notice when alot is going on I try to steer away from my blog. I dont really wanna remember my hard times. I know that they make me every bit of who I am, but I will always have them in my heart, dont wanna post them everywhere. Make sense? 

I am so excited about this month.. so many fun things planned..

*Fall festival  (including corn maze, and hay ride)

*KATE COMES..

*Dentist apt

*Halloween

*Ga/Fl game

This year also marks one year since my grandma passed :( Thats hard, and I still cant believe she isnt here. I just wish I could call and go by and see her whenever I can. I still ride with her pic in my car, and I still talk to her about all thats going on. I know shes up there looking down on us :)

 

Lys is going to be a GA cheerleader for halloween. Lily is going to be a FL cheerleader.. How appropriate being that its the ga/fl game weekend. SOOO exciting!

I am sooo in love with the fact that I finally feel like my life is headed to right where is should be. :)

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

30 days of me: Day 17

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.

I would really love to switch lives with my lys.. I would love to get in her head and figure out lots of things that I just dont understand.... I know that shes two, and that the things that I dont understand change from day to day.. but these are a few things that I would just love to have explainations for..

*Why oh why do u insist on making me only put on one shoe.. then 10 mins later you ask me for help with the 2nd one.

*Why oh why, do u not want to go to school today?? You really have it made there ya know?

*Why oh why, do u have to tell me no like every 10 mins? You know momma doesn't do well with that word.

*Why oh why, do u need mama to take you to go potty in the new house, when u went all on your own at the old one?

*Why oh why is "Momma's toilet" better that your own?

*Why oh why is is sooo fun to jump all over the new apt?? Im sure the downstairs neighbors think I have a wild hullagan as a child.

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On a positive note, I do love this baby more than words can explain. Shes the most amazing thing that has ever happend to me, and I couldnt see my life any different. I would also love to understand the love she has for her "nite-nite" (blanket.) Its so amazing how much she loves that thing. I would love to see how they see the world, and how they think of everyone. This child LOVES everyone. She sees no harm in anyone ever. Everyday that I pick her up from school, she has to give everyone a hug bye. Its sooo sweet. So there for one day I would love to swich lives with my 2 y/o and not only understand the complicated things that she goes threw, but also understand how she sees the world. 

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

Right now at...

A little over 2 1/2 :)

-Lys loves to do what makes her happy!

-Not currently fond of clothes.

-Currently just got over her 2nd offical black eye!

July 2009                               Aug 2010

-Is very much so into girly stuff bows, and glasses, and Lots of pretty things.

-Is starting to show signs listening problems like her father, and I dont like it 1 bit.. AT ALL!

-Tells me that im the "Best mommy ever" YES!

-Says "Im sorry mommy" If shes not listneing and "hurts my feelings."

-Tells me when she is excited, and LOVE other little babies!

-Loves to say her prayers before we eat, and bed! (to her its a must)

-Has quite the attitude, but is very well mannered :)

-She LOVES to draw, I think I may just have me a little artist on my hands :)

-Does Not like when carli sleeps in her room. Tells her "NO carli, GET OUT!"

-Loves her chocolate milk, and vitamin in the morning.

-AND we have already decided that she will be a GA DAWG cheerleader for halloween, and its just perfect!

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

Drum Roll PLEASE...

7... yes 7 weeks untill we move!!

YAY!

So this weekend was quite lovely! We went to ga, to spend some quailty time with the parento's, and to persoanlly wish my sister a

SWEET SIXTEEN!!

Ahh, to be young again..

 HA HA NOT!

I can say that I actaully LOVE the age that im at. I love that im married, and I have a beautiful baby girl, and family to share it with.

Anyways back to the weekend..

We finally got down there around 12, and we got unpacked. Lys was so excited this time.

Its kinda sad because she actaully knows what were doing, and were not about to be able to do it much anymore. She told me on the way down there..

L) "I excited mama"

Me) "You're excited?? To see nana and papa, and kala?"

L) "UH-huh!"

Me) "You know today is kala's birthday? Guess how old she is?"

L) thinking very hard "Umm... i dunno"

Me) "Shes 16!!! "

L) "16?? I 16 tooo mama"

Me) hahahhaha "no baby, not yet!"

:( That was another first that came and went. Just randomly telling me that she was excited! Was a great conversation it lead too.

We get there and she is now calling papa, papi?

HA HA, but they liked it.

We spent the whole afternoon, with friends, and family, and laughter. Conversation was bussing all around the house. It was LOVELY to be back home. The girls, (including lyssa, and kala and her friends) were in the yard tumbling, doing flips, and cartwheels. It was OH so lovely.

I was out there too just snappin photo's. When oh when I get a way to hook that up, its on. I will have to post a huge blog with lots of pics. :)

Kala decided to come back to jax with us, and so now shes here, and can I tell you that alyssa has herself a best friend while kala is here. She LOVES it. She actually stayed home for school to be with kala today. She was really excited.

We are gonna be going to the beach this sat with our lovely friends Mandi and her cute little family! We are very excited about that. Anyways that is about all for now, I hope everyone has a great work week, and weekend!

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

Pepsi & Sweet Sixteen......

*Make a GREAT combo for breakfast :)

*So I think that I forgot to mention that saturday i got stung by something.. what I have no Idea , but it hurt like HELL!!

I almost wanted to cry, and to top it off I didnt do anything.. The low life bug was just wanted to commit a hate crime, and I hope it died..

This was my leg.. 2 days later

And today it looks like a HUGE bruise.. All the ladies at work says that it was a allergic reaction. :( So I guess now im offically allergic to wasp thing stings. AHH

* So I have ran into another parenting problem. I hope its just not me either..  At the age of 2, alyssa is a great little girl. She is smart, and sweet, and funny, BUT sometimes I guess the "terrible two's" come out. To be quite honest I dont really know what to do when we are in public. When we are at home and nothing works, I take her to her bedroom tell her that since she cant listen then she gets to sit to herself for a min. Although she kicks and screams and yells and can open her own door she doesnt like it, she actually sits there and deals with it. I then go get her, and talk to her about it, and she actually listens for like the rest of the day. Its pure bliss actually. As soon as we go out in public though she acts so bad now..You know gets in the clothes rack and hides, and I try my best to tell her no, and to act right but eventally it always turns out the same. Along the lines of me or daddy dragging her out the store kicking, and trying to talk to her about her behavior as she bucking, and telling us no.

SO ANYONE PLEASE HELP!!

LOL

*So I have so been slacking on my 101. I need someone to get my butt in gear!

*I really wish my hubby would stop thinking we are going to make thousands of dollars from moving ourselves. I think hes crazy, and would really like for him to make up his mind on what he wants to do.

*I am SUPER excited about my sat morning with Mandi :) I will have to tell you all about what we are going to do MONDAY.. due to the lack of internet at out house.. Gotta love me some AT&T.. they have been the best service providers EVER...... NOT!!!

*Peytons services will be: Wednesday at 6 is the viewing.

                                     Thursday at 11 is the funeral.

(This will be probley one of the hardest things I will have to do, so please keep the prayers rolling. There are some family issues going on, so the family can still use LOTS of prayers right now.)

*Lunch?!? Chinese or pizza?!? The decisions contine..

Till then thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

I said one thing and now...

I am doing another

Why hello hello, there Tuesday! Time sure does fly by doesn't it? So I know that everyone out these has said/done this.. especially parents.

I would never let my kid do that..

I would whoop her butt if she done that..

I cant believe she lets her child so that.. never in my house..

Well ladies and gents I can announce that this face right here..

HAS BROKEN ME DOWN!!

I officially am a part time co-sleeper.

I NEVER thought that I would give in to it, and when I mean part time. I mean she gets out her room, and comes and gets in our bed at like 5-30, 6ish, and then sleeps with us till we wake up. I just realized that with everything going on with peyton, somethings like this I just have to let go.. It actually is kinda nice to see this sweet face cuddled with her blankie when I first open my eyes.

I just cant help but let her come on it, and have some lovie, cuddle time :)

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On another note.. Yesterday daddy started trying to teach lys to ride her bike..

It was so cute, and I think she really WANTS to learn. After so long though she didn't wanna no more.. so mama hopped on and she wanted to push me. I guess that's fun at 2. So we were going down a bump and daddy decided to help, then

 CRASH, BOOM, CRACK...

MAMA BROKE THE BIKE HORN :(

I was quite sad so we had to put the bike up because the plastic was all sharp and daddy wanted to fix it before she rides it again.

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One last thing.. yesterday when the hubbs and I were talking about my birthday lyssa informed me that it was her birthday tooo..

SO I guess I get to share my birthday with her, as well as everything else.. I LOVE IT!! :)

Peyton is still bad, she had a 107 fever the other day and her brain began to swell the docs are thinking shes going to walk or talk if she wakes up..... so please keep praying for her....

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.

Friday Smriday.. :)

Ahh.. the feeling of waking up on a friday, knowing that you have the whole weekend..

*off work

*to send with your loved ones

*to do as you wish..

The best feeling to get home.. for me anyways starting about this time I start getting ansy:( Sadly

This week went by pretty fast. We had a good family day yesterday. Although I wasnt feelin well all day, I came home to a clean house, and the hubby already on dinner. :) After dinner we picked up, and then went for a lovely walk with sasha. She was SOO good. I couldnt believe it. Brandon said that she was just chilling my back and shoulders smelling and playin with my hair :) Makes me so happy to know that shes coming around. We are still trying to figure out when we are going to get the other baby. :( We then took a fun trip to taco bell at 12. HA HA yes we did that. Lyssa wasnt even to upset we woke her. LOL It was SO SO good :)

This weekend, brandon is taking me out on a date saturday... Should be fun fun. :) Then sunday our friend is coming over for dinner. Thats exciting as well. Other than that nothing too much is going on around the gallardo house. :)

Im reading this new book, its the one that supposdly the she army wives was written about. : Under the Sabers the unwiteen code of army wives. So far it is quite interesting.

Just wanna share a quick passage from it...

"They will say the wife is a snob if she is quite, a slut if she talks to guys, and vain if she wears fashionable clothing. If she works she doesnt participate in unit functions-well, then the word is , She's got her own life and the marriage is not going to last.

Isnt it true.. People even me at times can be so quick to judge..

Alright thats all for now......thats for joining us in this journey we call life.

Mothers day 2010

My Mothers Day 2010.

Brandon kept dropping big hints that he had everything planned this mothers day. I mean lys is two so I have had a few mothers day's before, but this one has far been the BEST. Brandon actually had duty sunday but that was alright because we made the best of it. I guess you have to when u are a NAVY wife.. LOL

So friday I knew that lyssa and daddy were coming up to work, cause we needed brandons yummy strong arm muscles, to carry all these files that were just lying around up to the attic. So he picked lys up to school, and brought her here with this..

It was my actual FIRST present from HER.. It really made my day. I always do this stuff foreveryone else in the famile, but never before have I gotten something that was made just more me. :) Yes yes I cried like a "proud MOM "

It says:

Mom.....

Sometimes you get

discouraged,

Becasue I am so small,

And always find my fingerprints

On furniture and walls.

But everyday I'm growing

And I'll be all grown up someday

And all those tiny fingerprints

Will surely fade away.

So here's my tiny fingerprint

And you can readily recall

Exactly how my fingers looked

when I was very small.

(ahh, still choked me up.)

We then went home, and I was having HORRIBLE cramps. Felt crappy all day. I was moody and irratable. SO brandon grilled up some BBQ chicken, and when we were done eating dinner, he was like well I guess ima give you my present now.. Grabbed money out his wallet, and told me to go buy

THIS...

Oh, I was estatic.. Couldnt wipe the smile off my face.. AT ALL.. HA HA HA HA Theres nothing else that makes me wanna clean the house more than, when I get something new for the house. LOL Isnt it how funny things change when we grown up and get married. LOL

Saturday morning.. we can say didnt start off well at all. But we wont go into details. Lets just say we had a minor Argument. LOL But I got these flowers, and we decided to go to the town center to get out of the house, to maybe relieve a little tension. So all in all I guess it turned out to be a lovely evening, just strolling around.

OOH.. and these flowers were delivered During the (argument) ha ha

And these were taken before we left to the town center :)

Sunday was VERY relaxing, lys playin quitely all day. Nothin over extrordinary happend cleaned, and did laundry. It was quite lovely. :)

What did yall do on mothers day weekend? I Hope everyone had a weekend they will always remember. I can tell ya that it sure is nice to have a Weekend.. not just a day (in my house anyways) thats all about you for a change. Sure is well appreciated. :)

Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.