Since I have been MIA.. I owe you to tell you whats been goin on..

First I should say that Peytons services were really nice.

VERY HARD..but it was nice.

Since then I am happy to report that my darkness (the horrible worry factor) has very much subsided. Things have been going somewhat back to whatever u wanna call  normal. Saturday morning I woke up early and Mandy came and picked me up and we went and watched the sunrise, and had good girl time and studed the bible. I really needed that.

 We didnt do much after then went to there house and had dinner. After we left what was a awesome dinner, and lovely people (thanks guys). The husband and I got into a miserable fight and I kicked him out.. It was a first for me, and it was SOO difficult. I just wish that something would come out of all this. I wish that we could just make up or either give up. This in between stuff is driving me crazy!! BIG TIME!

Dont worry thou he came back like 20 mins later wish pepsi in hand, and willing to talk. So thats good at least, and hes back home. Other than that nothing really new is going on. My dog scratched my new couches the other day, so lets say shes gated off in the kitchen. :( I hate to do that to her but I cant have her messing uo the new stuff.

So once again I have changed my mind about lys room inspiration. And I have totally decided what its going to be and im so confident in it im going to start getting stuff. PLUS I think that I can do it a whole lot cheaper this way. :) So here it is :):)

Wanted to share :)

As I just said in the blog before, I was going to do my bible study (that my oh, so amazing husband wrote, or copied out the love dare not quite sure. None the less still awesome for sharing it.), anyways well I have been going threw alot of changing this year, and about forgiving people that I help grudges with for a long time. I knew as a individual I was struggling emotionaly, and I have been doing alot to better myself. To fix all the wrongs and make them all rights:) Well there was a passage I wanted to share.

Love will lead you to forgive instead of holding a grudge. To be grateful instead of greedy. TO be content rather than rushing into more debt. Love encourages you to be happy when someone else succeeds rather than lying awake at night with envy. Love says "share the inheritance" rather than "fight with your relatives."  It reminds you to prioritize your family rather than sacrifice them for a promotion at work. In each decision, love ultimately lowers your stress and helps you release the venom that can build up inside. It then sets up your heart to respond to your spouse with patience and encouragement rather than anger and exasperation.

Isn't that beautifully written, just leads me to believe that although I know that spiritually and emotionally I know that it takes work, but I know that it will be all worth it to be that better person. :)

Day 6, and a few other things :)

So.. today marks day 6 of school. :) Shes is still doing quite well.. she know how to wash her hands all by her self now. I watched this morning. Although she is doin well in school, she isnt doing so well at home. I think she is going through some kind of attention phase. Lets just say I count to 10 like 10 times, hold my breath, wish, hope that some way some how brandon would walk thru the door and rescue me. try really hard to accomidate her moodness. She is just super cranky, wants me to kiss every part of her body that even remotly gets some sorta boo boo.  Runs from me all the time now as some sorta game. Here is my little turd on day 3 of school, I have decided too that my phone takes HORRIBLE pictures and im going to start using my digital camera as I should have been.

I know this sounds wrong but I do now understand why people put there kids on those leash things. I always said to myself how wrong that is, but now as a parent of a 2 year old if needed I would do it in a heartbeat.

I have been continuing doing my bible studies in the morning, and its so nice to wake up and read about the life that god has made for us, and the person that he wants us to be.

Also, I have still been doing well on the pepsi thing, although, I think that I need to incorporate a pepsi in the morning, I think it makes for a better day for me. Besides that makes just one in the morning, and some when I get home. SOOO much better than I was doing. So regarless at this point im still progressing. Had whole wheat toast for breakfast this morning, instead of something not heatly as I would have done. And made whole wheat noodles with my chicken alfredo last night. (with not added salt):)

My husband, oh my dear husband. I am so proud of him. I just cant wait till he comes home. I am plannin some homecomming events, and vacations. So if anyone has any ideas im all ears. Thanks for joining us in this journey we call life.